I went out with my ex last night, after waiting for quite a long time from the piano practise. The night didn’t turn out what to be expected actually. We talked about trust as I said to him that I don’t trust him.
As asked what that I don’t trust in him. I preferred to keep it to myself as I don’t want of what I wanted to know turn to be disappointment and anger. I turn nasty and evil when I am furious.
But it is decided, since I am kind of disappointed and a little angry, I have to post it.
How am I going to trust him when he’s flirting to my own bestfriend.
Call me jealous what-so-ever, but what can I do. That’s my thing.
“I miss you” “you’ve been quiet lately” “Muah”. Let me rephrase, it started with the word I. It gives out different meaning I tell you that.
OK! I didn’t get all these these days. What am I? No one?
I need motivation too. I am a someone too damn it!
Remember, before mushy-mushy words coming and receiving. The word “Bunny” even disappeared now.
The only sentence sent “what’re you doing?”
.... cooking?
And only once-a-day text and maybe in the future no text message at all in a day!
“Can you see us happy together?” that’s what I heard lately from him.
I am no psychic that can see the future anytime about us. If I do I tell.
I don’t have a time machine in my bedroom and go to 2011 and looked hey! There’s us happy living together sleeping in a different room.
I don’t have this magic mirror hang in my living room where I can ask, “Magic Mirror, can you see me happy with me ex?” The mirror would reply, “Which one?”
“Keep the gates open”
How am I supposed to ignore these. I was in love three times in my life now. I don’t give up in love…in fact I look for it, in fact I thirst for it.
Trust me, I’ve been keeping my gates open for all these times, hoping things turn out to be well.
But all I can see is this gate has been closed since, tie-up with this titanium chains from top to bottom and locked with thousands of padlock where nobody knows where the keys are.
All I can see negatives in me, there’s no single positives be seen and appreciate by at least in this relationship.
I know its not easy to forget someone you love before…been there don’t that….but hey life goes on! Life is good!
All I can say, he didn’t even try to!
Maybe I was hoping too much from this.
Maybe after times spend together, I hope things could get back to where it was.
Maybe I am the only side who “perasan” all this time.
What can I say, I am a human too, have anger and soft side but for now the dark side rules.
“Sorry. This is not the good night. sleep well”
Yes, even apoligizing doesn’t sound sincere. I know, if there no I before it, it doesn’t mean anything sincere from him. He told me.
Crap!
I am losing him….again….*sigh*
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7 comments:
First, sorry to bug-in huh..
Well, hello dear whoever-you-are.. Such a loser u are..
You've done a very big mistake there. BIG! HUGE! Being one of his galfren,he is such a sweet one and fun-to-be-with. U know, with his "labangness" and all that comes with that..
I could neva imagine anyone wanting to do wat u r doing to him.. how cud u? Dont u think its such a waste? Come on, there has to be a way that u guys could make things better, well at least on juz becoming good buddies.
My oh my!! Dear 'you', wat u did to him is absolutely un-maaf-able. With his own friend? Bad move!
Anywayz, maybe he doesnt deserve u la.. He deserves a much much better one. U'll see... Kesian deh lho!!
I was contemplating whether to comment about that dream but here i am, commenting but not trying to be defensive. I did had a dream about B but i didn't wanna tell at first coz its only a dream. Nothing sexual, just a kiss, just a dream. Since when having a dreaming is flirting? I had a dream that i had sex with a vampire. Does that mean i like to flirt with vampires? Its only a dream. I only had one dream with you, that's it. A kiss on the lips, nothing sexual, it wasnt that good anyways. Prefer having sex with vampires.
R
Wow.I'm impressed :)
Things are not just meant to be sometimes, if some things are made purely by deception and bitchiness and lies and all that bad stuff, trust me, it will never prosper.
Moral lesson here? Don't jump too fast.
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